Maligayang pagbalik!
Sobrang daming nangyari, madami din sana ako gusto ikuwento. Pero sa ngayon ito na lang ang kaya kong ibahagi ko sa inyo.
Nalulungkot ako. Madaming rason kung bakit.
Ilang beses ko itinatanong ko sa Panginoon kung bakit nangyayari mga ito. Itatanong ko kung bakit iyon ang desisyon niya… nila. Sa totoo lang alam ko din naman kung bakit pero, pakiramdam ko na nabigo ako. Hindi sapat yung tulong na ginawa ko. Maraming nasasaktan at isa na ako doon. Sa parte ko naman nakakakonsensya, ni hindi ko na alam kung paano na ako kikilos. Wala akong magagawa kundi ipaubaya nalang sa Kanya ang lahat, alam naman Niya ang kailangang mangyari. Nakakatakot lang kasi baka ang kapalit nun ay mawala yung saya na mayroon ngayon.
Iniisip ko nga, ang daya ko. Kung kailan ako masaya o kaya tama ang ginagawa, yung mga mahal ko ang sumasablay. Sila ang nagkakamali at nasasaktan. Ang daya ko naman. Tama ba itong nararamdaman ko?
How Could You?
You washed you hands and put them back on the mud
Spread it all over my face.
I can’t stand watching you bleeding
Your self is all over the place.
Sorry eyes leering upon you
how could you?
Leaping forward than moving back
how could you?
Drowning in endless pain
You found pleasure
Stop and hold back
Remember? Remember?
How could you?
Stop crying, stop punching holes on your face
Beautiful girl
You worth more than this mess
We did all we can to save you from burning
From falling, from drowning
Why wouldn’t you listen?!
The more that you are hurting
The more we are dying
Drowning in endless pain
You found pleasure
Stop and hold back
Remember? Remember?
How could you?
How could you shut us down?
Mute us from our full blast
Darling please stand up and come back
Look at the people around you
They gave up already on you
Drowning in endless pain
You found pleasure
Stop and hold back
Remember? Remember?
How could you?
How could you?
