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my family and i went to church last night in San Pascual.

it has been a while since we went there to attend masses.

well, what happened was… from the moment i stepped into that church i was literally tearing up. i was looking at the front pews. i always do that everytime we go there… expecting to see Mamay [lolo ko] and Nanay [lola ko] sitting in front as they always do..but they’re not there though. Mamay’s not there.

Mamay’s not here… i thought. eversince i was a kid, dad would let me sit beside Mamay and Nanay during mass. that became a habit of mine year after year…

i was still looking at the front pews, i was imagining him right there looking back at me with a smile. God, how i miss him. then flashbacks of his funeral mass came into my head… i quietly cried more. my sister was aking my that time what’s wrong… all i can say is …miss ko na talaga si Mamay

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